Before Sunset #5

I have 3 songs in English. One's about my cat, one's about... my ex-boyfriend, well, ex-ex-boyfriend, well, it's just a... little waltz.

A waltz?

Yeah.

Put the waltz.

I haven't played it in a while, you sure? All right, the waltz.


"Let me sing you, a waltz.
Out of nowhere, out of my thoughts.
Let me sing you, a waltz.
About this one night stand.
You were for me that night,
everything I always dreamt of in life.
But now you're gone.
You are far gone.
All the way to your island of rain.

It was for you just a one night thing.
But you were much more to me, just so you know.
I don't care what they say
I know what you meant for me that day.
I just wanted another try.
I just wanted another night.

Even if it doesn't seem quite right.
You meant for me much more than anyone I've met before.

One single night with you, little...
Jesse... is worth a thousand with any-body.

I have no bitterness, my sweet.
I'll never forget this one night thing.
Even tomorrow in other arms.
My heart will stay yours until I die.

Let me sing you a waltz.
Out of nowhere, out of my blues.
Let me sing you a waltz.
About this lovely one night stand."

Before Sunset #4

I was thinking... For me it's better I don't romanticize things as much anymore. I was suffering so much all the time. I still have lots of dreams, but they're not in regard to my love life. It doesn't make me sad, it's just the way it is.

Is that why you're in a relationship with somebody who's... never around?

Yes, obviously, I can't deal with the day to day life of a relationship. Yeah, we have, you know, this exciting time together and then he leaves and I miss him, but at least I'm not dying inside. When someone is always around me, I'm like suffocating!

No, wait, you just said that you need to love and be loved...

Yeah, but when I do, it quickly makes me nauseous! It's a disaster... I mean, I'm really happy only when I'm on my own. Even being alone... it's better than... sitting next to a lover and feeling lonely. It's not so easy for me to be a romantic.
You start off that way, and, after you've been screwed over a few times... You... you forget about all your delusional ideas, and you just take what comes into your life. That's not even true, I haven't been... screwed over, I've just had too many... bla relationship. They weren't mean, they cared for me, but... they were no real... connection, or excitement. At least, not from my side.

God, I'm sorry, is it...

Is it really that bad? It's not, right? You know... it's not even that, I was... I was fine. Until I read your fucking book! It stirred shit out from you,... It reminded me how... genuinely romantic I was, how I had so much hope in things and... now it's like... I don't believe in anything that relates to love, I don't feel things for people anymore. In a way... I put all my romanticism into that one night and I was never able to feel all this again. Like... somehow this night took things away from me and... I expressed them to you and you took them with you! It made me feel cold, like if love wasn't for me! I... I don't believe that. I don't believe that. You know what? Reality and love are almost contradictory for me. It's funny... Every single of my ex-es... they're now married! Man go out with me, we break up, and then they get married! And later they call me to thank me for teaching them what love is, and... that I taught them to care and respect women!

I think I'm one of those guys.

You know, I want to kill them! Why didn't they ask me to marry them? I would have said "No", but at least they could have asked!!! But it's my fault, I know that
it's my fault, because... I never felt it was the right man. Never!

But what does it mean the right man? The love of your life?

The concept is absurd, the idea that we can only be complete with another person is... EVIL! Right?

Can I talk?

You know, I guess I've been heart broken too many times. And then I recovered. So now, you know, form the starts, I make no effort. Because I know exactly what hap...

You can't do that. You can't do that, you can't live your life trying to avoid pain,
at the expense of en...

Ok, you know what? Loose our words! I've gotta... I've gotta get away from you... Stop the car, I want to get out!

No, no, no, don't... don't get out... You know, it's being around you... Keep talking...

Don't touch me! You know, I wanna get on a cab... Monsieur... Monsieur, arrêtes vous!

No, no, no, don't, keep going... No, listen, I'm just so happy... thank you, just keep going...
All right. Look, I'm just so happy, all right... to be with you. I am. I'm so glad you didn’t' forget about me.

No, I didn't... and it pisses me off, ok? You come here to Paris, all romantic and married. Ok? Screw you! Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to get you, or anything. I mean, all I need is married man! There's been so much water under the bridge, it's... it's not even about you anymore, it's about that time, that moment in time, that is forever gone, I don't know!

Richard Linklater
Julie Delpy
Ethan Hawke
(Before Sunset, 2004)

Before Sunset #3

I remember thinking at the time, that... so many of the men that I admire most, you know, that their lives were... were dedicated to something greater than themselves...

So, you got married because men you admire were married?

No, no, no, it... It's more like I have this... this idea of my best self! You know? And I wanted to pursue that... even if might have been overwriting my honor other self! You know what I'm saying? I mean, it's funny like... in the moment, I remember thinking that it didn't much matter the "Who?" of it all... I mean, that nobody is gonna be everything to... And that ultimately, it's just a simple action of committing yourself, you know, meeting your responsibilities that... that matters. I mean, what is love? Right, if it's not respect, trust, admiration? And I... I felt all those things! So, cut to the present tense, I feel like I'm running a small nursery with somebody I... used to date. I mean, I'm like a monk, you know. I mean, I've had sex less than... 10 times in the last 4 years.

What?

What, what? Are you laughing at me?

No.

It sounds pathetic?

What monastery you know where monks have sex 10 times?

Ok, I'm doing better than most monks. All right? But I do, I feel like if somebody were to touch me, you know, I would dissolve into molecules.

Richard Linklater
Julie Delpy
Ethan Hawke
(Before Sunset, 2004)

Before Sunset #2

Our lives might have been so much different!

You think so?

I actually do...

Maybe not, maybe we would have hated each other, eventually.

Oh, what, like we hate each other now?

No, maybe we're... we're only good at... brief encounters, walking around in European cities, in one climate!

Oh, God, why didn't we exchange phone numbers and stuff? Why didn't we do that?
Because we were young and stupid?

You think we still are?

I guess when you're young... you just believe... there'll be many people with whom you'll connect with. Later in life you only realize it only happens a few times. Yeah, you can screw it up! You know, misconnect... Well, the past is the past. It was meant to be that way.

Yeah, you really believe that?

That everything is faded?
Well, you know, the world might be less free than you think.

Yeah?

Richard Linklater
Julie Delpy
Ethan Hawke
(Before Sunset, 2004)

Before Sunset

People just have an affaire, or even... entire relationships...
They break up and they forget!
They move on like they would have changed a brand of Cereals!

I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with.

Because each person have... you know, specific qualities.
You can never replace anyone.
What is lost is lost.
Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me.
I haven't fully recovered.
That's why I'm very careful with getting involved, because...
It hurts too much!

Even getting laid!
I actually don't do that... I will miss of the person the most mundane things.

Like I'm obsessed with little things.
Maybe I'm crazy, but... When I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why... I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk, or... ants, crossing the road... the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk...

Little things.

I think it's the same with people. I see in them little details,
so specific to each other, that move me, and that I miss, and... will always miss.

You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details.
Like I remember the way... your beard has a little bit of red in it.
And how the sun was making it glow that... that morning, right before you left.
I remember that, and... I missed it!

I'm really crazy, right?

Richard Linklater
Julie Delpy
Ethan Hawke
(Before Sunset, 2004)